sigh.

what happen when u have too much pent up anger, pent up frustration, pent up hate & sorrows and there's no outlet to release it? what happens when a certain someone tells you some deep dark secret, that its a matter of life and death, and no matter how much you want to tell someone about it, you just gotta suck it in and keep your mouth shut. it's like a treasure chest where all those wonderful glittering, sparkling jewel are being selfishly kept and jealously guarded. But there's one major problem, that treasure chest can only keep so much, it's up to its limit and on the verge of exploding.

so what do u do? buy a bigger chest? how if that treasure chest is your head? cant buy a bigger head, can we now. that would work only in harry potter's world, where thoughts can be keep in a pensieve, or in that paycheck movie where certain thoughts can be erased. sigh. i guess the only possible outlet is the 1 part vodka 2 parts lime solution and a whole lot of good friends hiding your car keys when it's time to go back home.

you're too chicken **** to whack urself, not too mention that it would be a mortal sin, so forget about it. you decided then to confront a certain someone because of that certain frustration, but the only result is more frustration and now plus a super amount of anger. hence your stress level increases tenfold. arrgghh. don't bother conversing with DumbA** Stupid people. it only aggravates you further. better still just pretend that person doesnt exist. fine i can do that easy, the only problem that D.A** person just wont shut the F(toot) up.

so no easy solution, just bear with it. the bottle of JD in my room taste better every night, might as well turn alcoholic. it's in my blood anyway. sigh. what the heck, my life on earth is only temporary anyway. find my purpose, be done with it, maybe my next life mission would be an easier one than now. just hope i don't screw up too much in this lifetime. sigh, time to empty my head.